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वक़्त वो भी था जब मांगने से पहले ही तू सब कुछ दे जाता था 

सच्चाई की जीत के लिए खुद ही धरती पर उतर आता था 

इक विश्वास पर सारथि भी बन जाता था तू

इक आस्था पर प्राण भी लौटा जाता था तू

फिर आज तुझे क्या हो गया

आज तू कहाँ सो गया 

एक ही रावन था  तब जब तू धरती पर आया था

एक ही द्रोपदी थी जिसका चीर-हरण बचाया था

एक ही प्रहलाद था जब सिंह रूप तुमने धर डाला

फिर आज क्यों ,

हर बार कोई रावन ही जीत जाता है

हर रोज ही किसी द्रोपदी का चीर-हरण हो जाता है

और हर रोज ही एक प्रहलाद यही कहते हुए मर जाता है

कि

अब बुलाने से भी तू नहीं आता.

मैंने देखा है, रंग सपनो के बदलते हुए...

मैंने देखा है, रंग सपनो के बदलते हुए,

और पाने की चाहत में, अपने जज्बातों से लड़ते हुए,

नम आँखों के कोनो में, सिक्को की चमक पलते हुए,

सूरज सा चमकने की चाहत में, खुद के भीतर जलते हुए,

मैंने देखा है, रंग सपनो के बदलते हुए.

मुट्ठी भर आसमान ही चाहत थी जिनकी,

उन्ही लोगों को, दो गज जमीन के लिए लड़ते हुए,

आज में जीने वालों को, कल के लिए मरते हुए,

खवाइश लिए परिवार की, अपनों से अलग चलते हुए,

मैंने देखा है, रंग सपनो के बदलते हुए.

हर किसी को तारों को छूना है

हर किसी को सबसे उचा होना  है

उच-नीच  की इस लड़ाई में, 

तारों तक पहुचने की पढाई में,

अपनों से झगड़ते हुए,

भावनाओ से खिलवाड़ करते हुए, 

मैंने देखा है, रंग सपनो के बदलते हुए.

सुना है अक्सर मैंने भी,

कुछ पाने के लिए, कुछ खोना पड़ता है 

स्वर्ग अगर हो जाना तो, मरना पड़ता ही है 

अक्सर ऐसी आत्माओं को,

अपने जीवन के लिए लड़ते हुए,

नरक के रास्तों पर, बड़े कदमो से चलते हुए,

मैंने देखा है, रंग सपनो के बदलते हुए...

Just Bcoz I am your father...

My Sweet baby,

Now you are eighth months old and I can visualize your growth very clearly. I have no idea about your looks but still I imagine you, Sometimes just like your mother, innocent face, big eyes and sweet smile with dimples and sometimes it’s me who reflects in you.
              Now you are enough capable to take your mother’s attention all the time and also started taking her sleep away. Sometimes your mother tries to shows me your spongy activates but on the next, your movement becomes as silent as you are the most decent baby of the world. I have doubt on your decency but at the same time I feel confident about your smartness.

              And that’s the reason; here I am addressing you very first time. I just want to share my feelings with you, want to tell you some of my plans which I have for you. I don’t know how relevant this will be for you. Will you be agreeing with me or not? Will you be enough mature to understand your father or not? But Still I am writing this for you because of my father-hood. I think somehow I am also carrying the same container which I got from my father who always wants to plant his views inside me. And thats why, sometimes I see you in Indian cricket team, sometimes on the ramp, sometimes as a great Indian leader and sometimes I see you in the uniform of Indian army. I have no idea about your liking and disliking but still I have set these plans for you.

              Truly speaking dear, these were my plans for me. I wanted to be part of any of these but couldn’t and now being your father I want to impose these on you. But I demand you not to bother about any of my wish. I know I am wrong but being a father I may never accept this and that’s the reason I want to be your friend. A friend, who just wants to see you happy and successful. I heard a theory which says that father-son becomes friend when they wear the same number of shoe but at the same time this theory doesn’t say anything about father-daughter friendship. So in my views this theory covers just half of truth and to which I don’t believe because I haven’t experienced the same in my life. So my dear from the day when you will understand the meaning of the friendship I will count you my friend and I wish if you could feel the same.

                 I can give you lots of reason and excuse for my failure, not achieving my dreams but the truth is, I was neither enough confident about my dreams nor I had a friend who trust me more than myself. But I will trust you and that’s why I will ask you to choose a dream for your life and take your dream confidently. I promise, you will always find me there with you, sometimes to motivate you, sometimes to hold you and sometime just to cheer for you. And trust me your father will be the happiest person of the world when-ever you will convert any of your dreams into reality. 

           My dear, we (me and your mother) both want to give you all the comfort which we can afford and also which we missed in our child-hood but I will never like incase this will make you weedy.

            I don’t know that you are my son or my daughter but one thing which I want to make you clear right now, is that, you are not going to get any favor based on your gender. I will be equally strict and equally friendly in either of case. I may allow you to do mistakes and will guide you for not repeating the same but nobody will be able to save you from me in case you misbehaved with your elders, especially with your mother.

to be continued ...